1st job for 1st born

Today will be Pickle’s first day at his first job. wow. It’s just incredible to me.

He will be working floor stock in retail. He will have an aide provided through Opportunities for Ohioans with Disabilities working 4 hours, Monday-Friday and collect a paycheck. This is the part he is most excited about. He already has plans to take his kitten, Cortana, to the vet after he gets his first one.

It did my heart wonders to hear the pride in his voice as he told my Dad the news. Dad jumped out of his chair to hug him and said, “That’s wonderful.” My Pickle was beaming. I soaked it all up. Every last drop.

I’m so incredibly proud of him. Even when he’s unsure of what lies ahead, he goes full steam ahead with a positive attitude. To see him happy and reaching for his full potential and being proactive in having his best life possible is all I’ve ever wanted for him.

I can’t wait to hear about his new adventures into this mysterious, adult terrain.

Mom is so proud of you, son.

🎶 Dream reader, I believe you can get me through the ni-ight🎶

Reader, you have no idea how many dark nights you’ve seen me through. You help me have new “perspectacles” that find the silver lining on every stupid, black, little rain cloud that follows me. I’ll be the first to admit that can be annoying as hell. Sometimes my positive repositioning makes me roll my own eyes. Sorta like when you have a booger plaguing your nose and you have no choice but to stick a finger in to dislodge it. Disgusting, yes, but also immensely satisfying.

The struggle is real.

Now that you’re here, I just want to thank you for daring greatly to be so vulnerable in exposing your flaws. It allowed me to immediately recognize them as my own and erase all doubt and shame. I laugh about it now. I see the beauty in my own disastrous exsistence. Like taxidermy.

For that, I am forever grateful.

Keep doing you, boo.


(sigh of relief)

Well, I did it.

I made it through my first quarter back at college.  I got an A on both of my final exams. Now it’s just a matter of waiting for the grades for my final papers to see what grade I get for the class. Probably won’t find that out for another week or so.

Been having a lot of stomach pain the last few days. I’m betting I’ve devloped an ulcer with everything going on.

But at least I did this part….. and that’s really encouraging to me. The fact that I can do things all on my own, even while he’s trying to sabatoge it all. I prevailed.

As for the rest of it, I just gotta take it one day at a time.