Things my kids say:

Jedi:  I want a vape pen so my room smells nice like yours. 

Diva: Her room smells ah-mazing. It smells good because she cares about it and keeps it clean. Im obsessed with your bed, Momma.  Do you know I laid down and fell asleep in Mom’s bed for like an hour and when I woke up my skin was softer. 

Me: How is that even possible?

Diva: I DONT KNOW! But it’s totally true. Your bed is magic. 

The Hazy Cynapsis 

I have grown a real disgust for Mothers Day.
I cant even explain why.

Maybe it feels too forced or fake like Valentines Day?

Maybe I resent being type-cast?

Maybe I don’t want to recognize people who dont recognize me?

Maybe I just know too much?

I know all too well what goes on behind closed doors and that some Moms wont get what they deserve and others wont deserve what they get.

Sometimes I really wish I could indulge in a blissful eternity of ignorance.

Note to Self

1. This isnt a fairy tale, it’s real life and you will create the ending. 

2. Never start a relationship with someone in a desperate state.  When you are lost at sea, any port will be the right port. 

3. If you want to give something a shot, then have the patience to wait this out, let the dust settle and start with a solid foundation. That’s faith. 

4. Don’t get ahead of yourself. Take the time to sit down and write a plan of action. Review your best/worst case scenario and plan for both. 

5. Seek help. Professional help. A counselor who can help you work through the issues BEFORE creating a volatile scenario for you or your children. 

6. Actions speak louder than words – ALWAYS. Pay attention to what they do, not what they say.  

7. If someone wants a future with you and your children, they should be doing everything to show up as a complete person, not in pieces that you’re going to put back together. 

^^remember that if nothing else^^