The 5 Ways To Win MY Heart

1. Be courageous.

This is crucial. Everybody who holds a spot in my heart, at some point did something courageous that made me take notice. Whether it was taking the first step in approaching me, sharing something with me or doing something so bold that I had no choice but to take notice. This is true of my best female friends and my loves in life. Passive gets you no where with me. Standing by is ordinary. Anyone can exist, even cowards. I want to see your lion roar.

2. Have passion.

I’m not talking about red, hot, fiery passion and lust here. I’m talking about what makes you tick. That which lights you up like a Christmas tree. I don’t care if it’s video games or cars, music, art, food, sports or books, but there has to be something that inspires you and makes you feel good. Something that you connect to the outside world through. Because if there isn’t something that gets you connected, you’re likely very disconnected emotionally. In my experience that has always been the case.

3. Share moments.

There’s nothing like a having a beautiful moment that gets etched on your soul for life except sharing it with another person and knowing they are going to carry that piece of you, forever. Those little moments is the stuff life is all about. What is life without moments. If there’s no sharing moments, there’s no sharing my heart. Bottom line.

4. Make love to my mind.

If you cannot carry a conversation outside of a text message, just keep walking. This girl needs people in her life that can stimulate my brain in ways I didn’t even know were possible. You have to be able to have no fear of scratching out the surface bullshit and really digging some depth. I want to know what you’re thinking. I want to hear about your dark as much as your dreams. This is how we grow.

5. Effort counts.

Relationships can just exist, but if you want my heart, I need your effort. Give me your time, care and concern. Im worth it.

Chris’ Healthy Heart Fund

Guys, this is my beloved cousin, Chris.


On Sunday, February 8th Chris went to the ER with severe abdominal pain. The doctors at UNMH determined that he had a blood clot that was preventing blood flow to his kidneys.

Chris did not realize it at the time, but he was experiencing Heart-Failure.

Chris’ Heart-Failure is a side-effect from his pre-existing diagnosis of Atrial Fibrillation or “A-FIB.” If not treated properly, A-FIB causes blood clots that can result in stroke, heart-attack and other dangerous outcomes.

Chris’ heart has been determined to be at a 20% ejection fraction measurement, where a “normal” heart should be between 50-70%. (This is a measurement of how much blood the left ventricle pumps out with each contraction.)

…After 10 days of being closely monitored, Chris was released on Tuesday when medication began to stabilize his condition.

We hope to get Chris’ numbers up over time. His condition is not curable but it is manageable with medications and serious lifestyle changes.

Chris needs rest. He will rely on a number of medications for a while; some of them he will be taking for the rest of his life.

Chris still has a clot near his heart that is preventing him from getting a shock-treatment that would likely improve his situation.

Chris’ existing health insurance expires in March! His doctors have advised him not to go back to work until his overall health has improved considerably.

This fund will help assist Chris with medical bills and will help support a program of healthier eating.

Chris needs all the help he can get as he is transitioning to Medicaid (and whatever else he can apply for), during this financially stressful time.

Mom’s Ablation


Mom did great. She was a star patient. She did go into A-Fib during the proceure but that actually helped them pinpoint where her problems are stemming from, so she was actually able to get out of there in 5 hrs vs. 8. She’s been admitted overnight for observation as she has to lay flat for 6hrs, but so far all is well.
My sister and I never did find the relaxing free massages, but we did take an art tour.


I’m in the family waiting room at some pavilion or another at the Cleveland Clinic where I shall be for the next 8 hrs or so while my mother is having, what I believe is called, a cardiac ablation.

It’s kinda creepy here. Everything is white and grey and sterile. I feel like I’m in some futuristic weird realm. I was reading the guests and family information thingy. I guess there is a rooftop pavilion where they offer skyline views of Cleveland and relaxing massages so that we can provide support for the patient. That kinda makes sense. I mean I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been to the Children’s hospital with my pickle and wondered why they didn’t offer services like that for the parents.

Honestly, this is all just distraction from the fear of what could happen in the 8 hours that they are piddle-farting around in my mother’s heart. It’s not open heart surgery. In fact it’s what they call “relatively noninvasive”.  But essentially they are in there trying to find misbeats by eletrically mapping her heart and then they start trying to trigger some of the events to stop them. That’s the part that scares me.

But, here I sit with my sister and my father…..waiting.