Beautiful means “full of beauty”

I consider the possibility that I’ve been right and wrong my whole life. I was right to want to be beautiful and sexy; I was just wrong to have accepted someone else’s idea of what those words mean. It strikes me that I need to throw out the dictionary the world gave me about what it means to be a mother, a wife, a person of faith and a woman and write my own. I’ve finally unlearned enough. I have unbecome, and I am ready to begin again.


And I quote …

​There are many institutions that don’t want you to know that all you have to do to be with God is breathe, because then everybody’d quit jumping through their hoops. Breathing is free, you know. Knowing is important. You have to be still to know.

It strikes me that it’s always religious people who are most surprised by grace. Those hoops we become so exhausted from jumping through? We created them. We forget that our maker made us human, and so it’s okay—maybe exactly right—to be human. We are ashamed of the design of the one we claim to worship. So we sweep up our mess and hide our doubts, contradictions, anger, and fear before showing ourselves to God, which is like putting on a fancy dress and makeup to prepare for an X-ray.

The truth is grace and grace makes no exceptions.

You are not what you’ve done. You are loved and have always been loved and will always be loved. And not only are you loved, but you are love.

Love is what you’re made of and grace is free for all. Grace and worthiness are yours for the taking .Grace makes no disclaimer. It’s true for all or none.

~Glennon Doyle Melton

The Hazy Cynapsis

img_1904-12I finally figured out exactly who I am in movie/tv character : I am Polly Prince! From ‘Along Came Polly’?

Im also a little bit of “Baby” in ‘Dirty Dancing’   Ive been looking for my Johnny.

  • I just want someone to love me like Johnny Cash loved June Carter. You know, its not perfect, they both had previous failed marriages but come hell or high water they held on to each other. ❤️

Also, Kate Winslet’s character, Adele, in the movie “Labor Day”, and Clementine in “Eternal Sunshine for the Spotless Mind. 

Frankie of “Grace & Frankie”

Alter egos: “Bernie” in ‘Waiting to Exhale’ and Harley Quinn, of course. Jemma from Sona of Anarchy is growing stronger with each ride bitch on the bike. 

Bottom line: I have a lot of personalities!

Things my kids say:

Jedi:  I want a vape pen so my room smells nice like yours. 

Diva: Her room smells ah-mazing. It smells good because she cares about it and keeps it clean. Im obsessed with your bed, Momma.  Do you know I laid down and fell asleep in Mom’s bed for like an hour and when I woke up my skin was softer. 

Me: How is that even possible?

Diva: I DONT KNOW! But it’s totally true. Your bed is magic.