Just another manic Friday?

I am incredibly symptomatic following Wednesday’s epidural steroid injection. I’ve been agitated and pacing. Broke out into a hot, rash all over my face last night. Had the hardest time sleeping, constantly being roused from the edge of sleep with palpitations and chest pain. My body seems to be feeling the need to get up and run, which I guess is no surprise considering how much I’ve been laid up with the back pain prior, but it’s not allowing me to let my spine heal so that I can.

I swear, I feel like I’m caught in a perpetual Catch 22.

Trying to avoid pain medication and the potential fatal mix that can come with my other medications which all somehow fall into the central nervous system depression category, but still it. Trying to workout and lose weight without adding insult to injury. Trying to eat better but not being able to eat the fruits and veggies I crave while on a low residue, gastroparesis diet. Feeling as though I was doing much better at self-medicating with marijuana when I was younger, but not being able to do so because of my contract with pain management from which I need these epidural steroid injections, oh and that illegal thing. The same steroids that exacerbate my mental health issues and insomnia.

This is why Im a strong proponent for, at the VERY least, medical marijuana. Alcohol would be a better drug to scheduled illegally. If we can do better than Big Pharm, naturally, we should. Bottom line.

I am done with this vicious cycle and I just want off this nightmarish merry-go-round.

4 thoughts on “Just another manic Friday?

  1. Those damned steroid shots do that to me too! I yearn for energy, release from this endless fatigue, and then they rocket me overboard! If marijuana is the answer, ask if you can use the oil. I don’t know the laws in your state. If you know something that works, advocate for it. I’m here on your side, the one that doesn’t hurt!

    • Unfortunately, even though there are rumors of Ohio becoming the 5th state to legalize for medical/recreational purposes for residents over the age of 21, marijuana is still illegal here. Ive actually talked to one of my doctors candidly about it and she understands and validates my position, but still … laws and such.
      As always, I appreciate your support.

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