Praise You in This Storm

Often when I share things with people about things that have happened to me or are currently happening to me and follow them with a smile or a laugh, they are perplexed. It happened again today.

I found and applied for a job recently that I was rather interested in. I have been layed off for over a month now so when I got a call for an interview and the interview went well I got excited. When one of my references relayed to me some of the information that had been relayed to her, I got hopeful. When I called in for a second interview this week and was told I was one of three people left in the running for the position with the law firm out of sixty people who had initially interviewed and that there was something to be said for that, that I should give myself a pat on that back, I did. When I got the call this morning that the position had been offered to one of the other candidates, I listened as they told me that I had no short-comings and that every one really liked me but a decision had to be made and they were going to keep my resume on file because they did intend to hire in the future and would hope I might still be interested. I let my reference know that I had been passed over and I think she took it worse than I did.

WHY?!?” she demanded, and she wasn’t satisfied with the above answer. So I told her everything happens for a reason. Life is hard, but God is good. This much I am certain. Everytime I’ve questioned something that has happened, the answer has eventually come – I’ve just remained faithful and so I would this time as well. I explained that we were ok financially with one salary. My Mom is having heart surgery at the end of the month and to be honest, I would be grateful to have the time to be with her at the hospital that day and the for her recovery. There was a long pause.

Well, that’s a good attitude?”   Yes, it was presented as a question and I laughed, again told her we would talk soon and told her to have a good day and to call me so we could get together for lunch soon since my schedule is rather flexible and all.

If you’re wondering, no, I haven’t always been this way. When I was younger I tried to control every little thing that happened. I thought that being in control equalled power and power equalled respect. It took me awhile to figure out that controlling everything didn’t leave any room for error or much time for to enjoy the little things or to change your mind and try new or different things. It’s ok. It will be ok. I had to let go and let things happen on their own. It was liberating and I enjoy life a lot more. I notice things I never noticed before and things happen that might not have if I was trying to contain the situation. Now, I just trust that things will happen as they should and it might not all be good, but it will work out. I have faith, even in the thick of it that I’ll come out the other side.

“And even though my heart is torn…I will praise you in this storm”

6 thoughts on “Praise You in This Storm

  1. that song was the first song the holy spirit put in my heart when MrShann found out he lost his job. we are scared and dont understand but we still praise Him through these situations. people who dont know God dont understand it.. what a witness you are going to be through your trials and for the faith you have. I’m proud of you Stef.. *hugs*

  2. Surely – I have other choices. I could crumble. I could cry. I could fall into a deep pit of depression, drown in bottles of booze or pills or self-destruct in many, many other ways. I have my moments when I have cried, cussed, cursed, asked why why why has all these things happened to me, to us, the kids….and then I get up, dust myself off and get on with it. While there’s a lot to be disgruntled about, there’s a lot to be thankful for and so I choose to be faithful to thankful.

  3. that’s the way to handle adversity S. just keep going. It’s good that you’re keeping a perspective on this whole job hunt thing and your last set of interviews. Still though, i hope that you can find a new job and that things get settled down for you on that front. More importantly though is that i’m glad you’re able to have this time to spend with your mother. I know you’ll enjoy it and get even more perspective on your life. I still think that you should have gotten the job, but now that i see what you’ve done with yourself in the meantime, i think you will be carried to even bigger things.

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