Nightmare

I had a dream last night that I was pregnant. Very pregnant.

(Save your sentiment. It’s not a good dream)

EX was killing me. In my dream he was continually kicking me or hitting me in the head with something and I was slowly losing consciousness.

He wrapped me up in something and was dragging me down stairs. I could vaguely feel my body hitting each step. It was as if, I was dying, but I wasn’t quite dead yet.

Sometimes when you’re pregnant you can see the baby’s hand or foot inside your womb and in this dream as I was bunched in…whatever it was I was rolled up in, I was slumped over my body, so that my face was just above my belly and it looked as if the baby was trying to reach out to my face with its hand. So, I my hand in the baby’s hand. The baby in my womb. And then I died.

Or woke up.

2 thoughts on “Nightmare

  1. Ugh. Obviously, ex is getting in your head right now.  And he’s invading your dreams.  You can’t let him keep winning like this.  Something isn’t right with him.  I read the fishy post and you’re right.  Something is fishy.  Perhaps your subconcious is telling you what you already know in your heart.  He’s being weird and you shouldn’t trust him as far as you can throw him. Use caution, please.  I know you want to do right by your kids but honestly?  Not having him in their life is probably best right now.  He’s not a whole person and how can you be a good parent when you’re not whole?

  2. @justcallmekelli – Its not so much that the Ex is getting in my head as it is that we are dealing with stuff with the kids right now that is EXTREMELY difficult. I accepted along time ago that I couldn’t depend on him where the kids were concerned so I don’t even bother. It just makes things worse. As bad as this is, involving him would be worse. If I go to him with a problem about the kids, he instantly tries to find some way that its my fault, even when it’s 1) not anybody’s fault or 2) directly related to something he did. It’s beyond stupid and a complete waste of time and I admit while I’ve accepted it…it’s still frustrating EXPECIALLY when he’s asking to have coffee and claiming to be in a program and I know it’s all bullshit. I don’t have time or energy to waste on him.Bottom line: I don’t trust him. He’s given me a million reasons not to and not one reason to trust him. And unfortunately that’s why it is better for all parties involved for him to stay out of the picture. He’s just not an option.

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