I’m Moving On

I’ve dealt with my ghosts and I’ve faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I’ve found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I’m at peace with myself
I’ve been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I’m movin’ on

I’m movin’ on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there’s no guarantees, but I’m not alone
There comes a time in everyone’s life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

~

I spent a great deal of time yesterday putting things in place to move forward. Things were put away, thrown away, moved out of sight and out of mind, and even burned. That’s right – burned. Hey, I cannot tell you the healing power of putting items from your past up in flames. It’s over. It’s done and I’m moving on.

Just before I went to bed, I went into each of the kids’ rooms and kissed them good night. I laid in bed for a couple minutes and prayed. I just gave it all over to God and let go. When Jer came to bed, I heard Pickle call him into his room and ask for a favor, which Jer lovingly did. I cannot tell you what it does to me to see how good this man is, not only to me, but also to my children. I just listened and thought about what a legacy of love we have created, that we BOTH treat Pickle as our own without any hesitation. It hit me that even though I’ve been put through the fire and horrible heartache, I finally have all the things that I’ve wanted.

I am blessed and I am so grateful.

Because the kids are finally in a safe and in a healthy enviroment. I am safe, physically and emotionally. I am appreciated. I am respected. I am loved unconditionally, just as I am.

I’m standing my ground and my head is high. And ya know what?  I’m PROUD of myself. Truly, I am.

Whatever happened – it was worth it to end up here.

I just had the greatest sense of peace come over me and I had the best night’s sleep I’ve had in years.

2 thoughts on “I’m Moving On

  1. 🙂 
    “And letting go I am so proud of what I’ve done”.
    My boys from Blue October can sum it up way better than I ever could.

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