I can’t believe my little peanut is six already. Geesh, time flies. I really do remember the day he was born, like it was just yesterday, but at the same time, a lot of things have changed.
To be honest, Jedi’s birthday approaching was more difficult than I expected. It’s still hard for me to understand why. I guess it’s a “family milestone” and family is something we’re still trying to make adaptations with. It also made me think of the day he was born, his father being there, sharing that huge experience together. It made me think about birthdays past, how things were, how I wanted things to be now and in the future. In that regard, I miss being able to share these things with my husband and the father of my children. I just don’t miss the man who filled those shoes per se’. It’s more about the loss of that role in my life than it is about him, cause bottom line, I won’t mince words…..he wasn’t good to me.
What’s done, is done.
It’s just different, and we’re all just trying to adjust.