Run away

My husband has decided that he should go stay with his Mom for awhile to “get his head straight”.

I wish I could say this brought relief but honestly, this only further aggrevates me. To me it feels like this will be a vacation to him. He’s not gonna go clear up shit.  He just gonna to go to work, go to his Mom’s, have her coo and coddle him, wait on him, go out with his brothers and friend drinking, while I’m at home dealing with “our” life by myself. What the hell kind of sense does that make?

This is exactly my point. He bails on me.

It’s over.

The end is coming.

I wish I could say that I just don’t care, that after everything he’s done to me, I’m ready to throw in the towel, but I do care. It hurts. Tremendously.

This is maybe one of the few times in my life where I don’t want to be right.

7 thoughts on “Run away

  1. sweetheart i am so sorry. stay strong. You guys love each other. Thats a fact. You are the mother of his children. Thats also a fact. You have gone through a lot together and always made it through. another fact. So just be strong. You cant make his decisions for him,but hopefully this is one you wont have to. In the end, he knows where LOVE is at, where his home is. All you can do is trust that on his own he will still manage to find it.
    I will be praying for you and your family.
    love,
    ALICE

  2. How is going to stay at his mom’s going to help deal with what’s going on in your lives?  That doesn’t make sense.  You can’t run away from your problems, you have to face them head-on.  That’s something a teenage boy would do, not a grown man.  Oh honey, I am so sorry!!!  I hope he comes to his senses soon and he doesn’t stay at his mommy’s for long.
    You know where I am if you need to talk.  Email me.  Hugs, Tonya

  3. What a load of absolute horseshit.  I’m thinking that anyone with the name of Chris must have some kind of running mechanism ingrained inside their head, making them feel the need to bail when the going gets tough…  Steph, I’m sorry.  It’s not like you have the ability to do all of this yourself, and it angers me that he’s going to leave the heavy stuff to you so he can “clear his mind”.  Like he’s got all the shit to deal with or something…
    Grrrr… I can offer no sound advice, nor can I make you feel better.  This pisses me off at a man that I’ve never met.  If I did know him, I’d smack his stupid head just to make MYSELF feel better.

  4. oh man oh man…. i was hoping these cycles were going to stop. (((hugs))) I don’t know how you put up with the crap all the time. I know its b/c you love him so damn much. Too bad he doesn’t even realize how lucky he is.

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