My Mom is in the hospital again. Yesterday morning she had another really bad episode of chest pain. My Dad took her to the ER. The ER doctor said he didn’t think she was having a heart attack but that this was all a precursor to one. Her face turned totally white and she broke into a sweat, she had this look of complete fear come over her. Thank God for the nurse, Brenda, who talked her through her heart dipping down to 40bpms. Panic would not have been a good thing.
So far all the tests are coming back showing no damage, or clots or anything life threatening. BUT, the chest pain still remains.They were discussing doing a heart catherization this morning, but Mom wasn’t really for that since all the other tests are coming back good, they are 90% sure it’s not a heart problem and since there are more cardiac risk to her by going the catherization route than without doing it BUT, still there really are no answers.
It’s completely frustrating. Mostly because I think my Mom deserves better. If I had it my way, she wouldn’t be bothered by anything, ever and would become a patron saint or something like that. As much as she can drive me crazy, I love my mother more than words could ever say. I admire her a lot and have so much respect and appreciation for her and my father and the way they loved and raised me and my sister.
In that way, I have been most fortunate and will be forever grateful.
In other news (total subject change) … I’ve decided to go back to school this fall when Jedi starts kindergarten. Everything is almost in place and it looks like it might even be fully covered, including my books and everything. Plus, I will be doing a lot of my classes online from home so I don’t have to worry about daycare for the Diva. And because most of the credits I already have will transfer, I could be done with bachelor’s in two years, which will be perfect cause I’ll be finishing up as she starts school. Yay!