I’m lost in something right now that I can’t quite explain, bt I had this complete feeling of hopelessness this afternoon. I felt like the world was coming down around me and the only way out was, well the only way out.
I actually thought to myself that I was going to cut my wrists. I envisioned myself doing it. What I would use, what it would feel like. All the blood around me.
I felt completely alone.
I crumbled to the floor, pulled at my hair and broke into a sob.
I realize people have faced worse. That is what gets me out of it, sometimes I just really want to surrender. I don’t want to be responsible for anything or what will happen when I’m gone.
I want all of this to be someone else’s burden.