Crazy?

How many times do you take a shot at something before you give up?


Isn’t the definition of insanity when you do the same thing over and over again with the belief that there will be a different outcome when it has always produced the same results before?


What do you let take precedent when you need to make a decision and your heart and your head are not in sync?


((((sigh))))


Ok…..


Here’s the deal.


My cousin, Li, sent me an e-mail this morning.


She asked if it would possible for us to sit down and talk things out privately when I make my visit to KY next month.


Now, I am all for finding a resolution to the situation as a whole….I’m willing to sit down and listen and I’d be kidding myself if I didn’t admit that I would like to confront her face to face about some things, not that I would be mean, but you know….when things go down….you want an explanation. At first I thought, well even if she’s totally fake to me, if she can be in the same room with me without causing any added stress to the family then it’s worth it. Then a part me thought – she wouldn’t go through the trouble of trying to sit down with me and giving me the opportunity to say what I want IF she was just going to be fake about it. BUT, then I thought well maybe she’s just trying to clean her conscience, she’ll say what she wants and go on thinking the same things about me but being nice to my face. Then I think I’ll just be honest and be myself and if she doesn’t then whatever. As long as I can live with my own actions, but then I thought what was the point at all if she already has her mind made up to think ill of me?????


But she’s given me her word to have open ears, mind and heart.


That’s all I can ask for and I’ll put my own reservations aside and hope for the best.

13 thoughts on “Crazy?

  1. Good Luck and I hope it all works out cool!!
    Have a nice cup of tea….that usually sorts things out!
    hehe!
    Keep smiling
    English Prince. x
    cxxx|:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: >

  2. I assure you, I am not trying to clean my consceince (sp??). I think this has gone on for far too long and it’s time to just stop it. We are family and we should not be acting this way. I just think if we could sit down mano y mano, we could sort it out because we would each lay it all out there! You know? I understand if you have doubts, I had doubts before I emailed you this morning…but I think it would benefit us both to just talk it out.

  3. okay so I’ve been to your site like 4654654465 in the last 5 minutes but I am not stalking you .Hahaha I just got your comment so I had to write back and tell you HI and blow a kiss. LOL.

  4. *tear*
    that’s kinda cool.
    I hope it works out.  I’ve never had family drama, really, so I can’t relate.  And while I don’t know the whole story, I do know that it hurt you, and it bothered you enough to make you leave here.  I’m all for resolutions if it’ll take stress out of your life.  You have enough to deal with without trivial family stuff to get in the way. 
    I wish you luck.

  5. aww i really hope you guys can work things out…i am praying for you guys!!!!!!!!
    And yes you can “steal” my post about me!! I love doing stuff like that, so feel free anytime to use my forms!
    ๐Ÿ™‚ Hope your day is going well,
    ALICE

  6. Hey – if you don’t go to the wedding Saturday night you can keep me company because they all are going to the boat probably- maybe Lindsey can hang out with us also. ๐Ÿ™‚

  7. i have my doubts about her… but i REALLY am hoping for the best. everyone deserves a chance to change the path they are on. hopefully this will be a step in the right direction. family heartache is SO hard

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