How many times do you take a shot at something before you give up?
Isn’t the definition of insanity when you do the same thing over and over again with the belief that there will be a different outcome when it has always produced the same results before?
What do you let take precedent when you need to make a decision and your heart and your head are not in sync?
Here’s the deal.
My cousin, Li, sent me an e-mail this morning.
She asked if it would possible for us to sit down and talk things out privately when I make my visit to KY next month.
Now, I am all for finding a resolution to the situation as a whole….I’m willing to sit down and listen and I’d be kidding myself if I didn’t admit that I would like to confront her face to face about some things, not that I would be mean, but you know….when things go down….you want an explanation. At first I thought, well even if she’s totally fake to me, if she can be in the same room with me without causing any added stress to the family then it’s worth it. Then a part me thought – she wouldn’t go through the trouble of trying to sit down with me and giving me the opportunity to say what I want IF she was just going to be fake about it. BUT, then I thought well maybe she’s just trying to clean her conscience, she’ll say what she wants and go on thinking the same things about me but being nice to my face. Then I think I’ll just be honest and be myself and if she doesn’t then whatever. As long as I can live with my own actions, but then I thought what was the point at all if she already has her mind made up to think ill of me?????
But she’s given me her word to have open ears, mind and heart.
That’s all I can ask for and I’ll put my own reservations aside and hope for the best.