Here we go again.
I’ve had a headache for the past few days. I attributed that towards stress. Saturday evening my throat started hurting, which I attributed to the baseball games. But then, yesterday around 3pm I started feeling really weird. By 6o’clock I was completely wiped out and lathargic. I spent all night going from sweats to chills, but no fever and now I have that awful pain back in the one side of my neck.
This is how my last episode started before.
I’m so stupid sometimes. I should’ve listened to my doctor and gone back to for more testing. I just wanted life to move on though. I was tired of needles and testing and waiting.
So, now I’m scared. Wondering if I should really be scared. Is it just more like stress and tension? I can’t explain. It’s like…I think there’s nothing wrong but then I hear this little voice telling me how I thought nothing was wrong in Feb and how I left the ER against doctors orders assuming they were just being overly dramatic, only to be admitted within 48 hours and then spending a week there. I’m second-guessing myself I guess and that’s not helping.