Making it work!

-I am determined to make this work.
-IT WILL WORK.
-I need to make a point and I hope that it works, but if it doesn’t I’m just going to start biting my tongue A LOT!!!
-The only way this relationship is going to get any better is if we both learn to love each other for who we are, and stop saying every little comment that enters our brains.
-At this point it’s just as much me as it is him.
-HE IS SOOOO NEGATIVE. I CAN’T STAND IT!!!! (I wont say that)
-There are plenty of other miscommunications but this is the TOPPER.
-Maybe I can send subliminal messages or communicate via vibey thingys.

I need you to stop being so negative? Can he hear that?

Let’s be honest

I wake up this morning and roll over and tell my husband, that I feel extremely nauseated, so instead of saying “Poor baby” or just giving me a hug, he tells me that I need to start eating better. Isn’t that sweet??? I could’ve gone w/out that.

In fact, I felt as though it was a hit below the belt. When your significant other says “I’m tired” or “I’m not feeling good” shouldn’t you comfort them not say “Did you take your vitamins?” ”
You should eat better” Is it just me?

Maybe it’s the way he said it…

Then to top off this moment, I got a dialogue letter this morning. Should probably explain at this point that my husband and I are in counseling. Our counselor told us we should dialogue, which basically means writing each other letters, and using “I FEEL” statements, instead of accusatory statements.

The best quote from the letter – “LET’S BE HONEST OUR MARRIAGE REALLY SUCKS RIGHT NOW”.
Isn’t that pleasant???
All because I wasn’t feeling well and couldn’t tend to HIS needs. (sigh)

Today is going to be a GREAT day!

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Where do I even begin?

I am on a new journey of self-discovery. I am trying to reach a higher level of spiritually. As in, reconnection with the soul that lies within me and makes me, well, ME.
I guess that’s a lot to ask of myself, however at this crossroads in my life, I just have a lot of figuring out to do.

My husband and I have had problems since we met, I was and still am young, more naive than Id like to admit but lately I find that things are calm in appearance but under the surface it’s a mess. Like a volcano, ready to erupt. I also admit that Im still hanging onto the past. There someone who tied a knot in me that I can’t undo. Even after marriage, even after having my baby boy and I’m just not sure what to do with that. Girl brain thinks it must mean something. Maybe it’s meant to be. I think it’s crazy and at the very least, something to think back on in fondness when Im feeling low. It is more than that. I just don’t know what. I keep on moving forward though. Nothing like regret to make you feel alive. I’m trying to keep my head up while hoping and praying for the best … whatever that may be.

This entry will be quite boring because I spent sooooo much time trying to figure it out and get it up and running and importing what I already had from another site that I am now pooped out and ready to go to bed.

So, off I go, and hopefully into a sweet dreamy alter-reality!